Unfinished Business

I do not feel like there is that much unfinished business left in my high school career. I have gave up really on everything and I do not care much for these next two much and I will just be doing what I need to do to pass gym and English so that I can graduate. I do have things that I would like to accomplish, but I really just do not care any more. And I do not set goals in the beginning of the year so that when it is the end of the year and I would not achieve my goal I am not disappointed at all.
If I could start this year over I would without a hesitation. But it would have to start with last year so that i could choose different classes to make my senior year much more relaxed and easier for myself.  But for your class though I would have to change a lot of things. I really made this year a lot harder for myself by not reading any of the books, so I would make sure that I would read them so I would do better on the quartiles and all of the papers we have written. The last marking period I started off bad by doing the first three blogs really late. I would of made sure that I did all of the blogs on time to get a better grade. I would like to change that but the way this marking period started it might not happen. I am not sure why I do not do them they are actually really easy, but I guess I am to lazy to them.
I do not look forward to the future. I like to live in the here and now and try not to worry about lays ahead of me. It is really scary just thinking about it. So for future goals I do not have any. If I focus to much on my future my present life will not be as good as it could be, therefore my future would be ruined. And for me being ready for life after high school is not looking good either. High school in my opionion does really nothing to prepare you for the future only to help you. So I am really going to have to wing it and do my best in order to be really for what I will see in a few months. Maybe if I am lucky I will win the lottery and I will not have to worry about any thing and will not have to work. But I am not trying to focus on my future because I am really not looking forward to it at all.