Being Alone

When i was a kid being home alone was the scariest thing my parents ever did to me. Once i reached the first grade my parents let me be home by myself. During the day i had no problem being alone, but once night time came i could not do it. I would stay in my room watching tv trying to keep my mind pre-occupied. It didn't really work that well though. I would always be constantly being looking out my window checking if anyone was there, always had to have my dog in my room to protect me incase someone were to come in my house. I would get so scared that i also kept my house phone with me at all times just in case something bad were to happen. I would imagine that if someone were to come in my house that i would have traps ready for them throughout my house even though i did not. I would pretend i was the kid from "Home Alone"
 and that I would be able to out smart anyone who dared to enter my household. I was always really parnoid and this just made me feel so much safer.
However once i got older i was able to deal with being alone and i started to enjoy it. I started to think being home alone was cool and prefered being home alone then home with my family. I just reall started to like being by myself and not having anyone bothering me. Although i was really scared for a long time. It probaly took me until middle school to get used to being home alone.It was a daily rutine for me and i did not just enjoy that alone time i craved that alone time. I was not, or still am not sure why i love being alone so much, it just makes me feel so good that i just have to worry about myself instead of my friends or family.
Now I am trying to cut down on my alone time and just try to hang with my friends more since it is my last year with them before we go to college. So i try to hang out with them for a majority of the week and have some days where its a me day. Like the weekends Friday and Saturaday I am find with hanging out with my friends for the entire day, but Sunday i do not like hanging out with anyone. I take it as a personal day. I really enjoy having Sundays to myself.
In the futur i do not want to have a wife and kids. I do not think i will be able to spend with a family and having a full time job. It would be hard to have my alone time which i despertley need. Having a job and a family would put so much stress on me that I feel I would need to be by myself for atleast three days. I cannot really see how people hate being alone. I love it so much and it completes some of my days.